Growing up in Germany, I never had the feeling of belonging to the country. Traveling and looking at the landscape I never felt that this is actually “my” country.
This feeling changed when I moved to Israel. I know I’m at the right place. I know that I belong here and that my forefathers where walking on this ground before me. I know I made the right decision of moving and I know that I’m here for a reason.
Still, I can not grasp the feeling of actually belonging here. I still, in the back of my head think of maybe going back to Berlin incase things don’t turn out the way I wish.
Will there ever be a country I will feel I belong to? Is there such a thing as the “perfect country”?
Growing up in Germany I always thought I will have it very easy in Israel, since I’m Jewish anyways. I thought people will understand me and I’ll feel home in Israel automatically. Maybe moving to a country is like a relationship, maybe you have to grow your love to the country and maybe you have to work on it. Nothing in life comes easy, why do I consider moving to the Middle East easy then?!?